Baby Blues...

Ahh Sistah's Im back. Im still in the middle of a murder trial which started on the 4th April 2005. The case keeps going and going. I see no immediate end in sight. probably another month to go. It's been difficult for me to find the time to blog but I miss it terribly. Im also going through some baby blues because you see this trial is in a court very far from where I live and so my son who goes to school on another side of the island cant stay with me during the week. He stays with my aunts who are really like my mommies since they raised me. They love him to death and shower him with all the right stuff while I go out and defend this "so-called murderer". Is that freaky? Sistah's you know its difficult to be away from your child. You know they need you so badly. Some of us choose this career path and we end up not having much time to spend with our families. Is that the right thing I ask myself over and over. The thing is whilst the answer always seems so simple to others... i.e of course you need to spend more time with your family... The answer never seems easy for me. The thing is Im so filled with things I need to accomplish that Im always on the go. That is not to say that I do not spend quality time with my son, teaching him the stuff that I am learning everyday, the lifeskills and morals to become successful in life. And loving him and listening to him.
I am passionate about his wellbeing in every aspect and I really work at letting him know how much I love him. He also knows however that Mommy is a person with dreams and goals and in order to achieve them effort and commitment are necessary. Somehow the way I look at it... I try to teach my son how to be a success by setting an example of what it takes to be so. This is the first time that he is away from me for a whole week at a time during school time. Do the other sistah's think that this is selfish? I'd really like to know...